.Sunday, January 27, 2008
@ yoururlhere
I'm enjoy my class even more each day.
Went out with Kin loong, ivan and adrian to bedok.
Support our little friend that is having sea training.
Haha. Went to play playground .. THE SEE-SAW! Hahah.
Super fun. Me and ivan always get stuck in the air.
BECAUSE KIN LOONG AND ADRIAN IS TOO HEAVY!
Hahaha... It was so funny.. Then we went to play with the purple dino.
Went town.. Was thinking to go catch a movie.
Can't find any place that the movie we wanted to watch.
So went to play pool. Went home late, Got scolded.
But i still enjoy being with them..
Just think that, before school reopen..
I wasn't looking forward to go school.
And since now i know my class people.
I enjoy having fun with them!
Just that their a bit of childish.
I can take it! HAHAH
I think i might fall for you..
.
@ yoururlhere
I have officially found out that he is together with her now.
heart do hurts.
But i don't want to care anymore.
He is like luke.
kept empty promises.
I told myself, he is not worthy for me to drop tears ba.
its the past.
I don't really want to remember..
All the best james.
Farewell...
.Thursday, January 24, 2008
@ yoururlhere
Its only the first three week.
Yet i'm hurting someone.
I don't want to be this way.
But what can i do?
Falling by pieces.
i don't like this.
.Monday, January 21, 2008
@ yoururlhere
I didn't return last year.
And i won't be able to return this year either.
Feeling depress..
I really do..
I miss them.
I miss her..
I miss her so much.
Last year was due to N level results and work.
This year is due to that my birthday,
I am not having any holidays..
Doesn't seems fair again.
People...
TALK TO ME!. =(
.Sunday, January 20, 2008
@ yoururlhere
Falling in love is easy.
Forgetting someone is not.
Handling relationship isn't east either.
Hurting one another can be easy, But also, it can be hard.
I just want to be myself.
My carefree life.
My life of speechless.
My life, my world.
Hurt is enough.
Love has end.
.Thursday, January 17, 2008
@ yoururlhere
I am officially going to give up on him.
This time i'm serious.
I won't blog anything of how much i miss him.
Or even how much i love him.
What is gone, It is gone.
No more turning back.
Being friends its the best for everything.
No more tears for him.
No more heart broken from him.
No more.
.Tuesday, January 15, 2008
@ yoururlhere
He called me last night.
I was happy.
But i wasn't happy what he was talking about.
Either he is trying to make me jealous or he is an idiot.
Telling me about girls.
How i know the girl he mention.
Do i know her parents and stuff...
Oh well, Maybe he is planning to go after her...
SO MUCH OF NOT HAVING ANOTHER RELATIONSHIP.
Oh well, Lying is part of his character.
Hais. I'll have to try hard forget about him.
Knowing holding makes no different.
Its just that, Its going to hurts more if he really get a relationship that fast.
Even if we broke up haven't even one month.
I don't know what he thinks of a relationship like.
Someone for him to kiss and hug?
Girl that he get will just let he be the way he is?
Hope he think for his own.
Really pray for him.. :)
.Saturday, January 12, 2008
@ yoururlhere
If you're with someone,
Yet another person came and confess to you.
Would you go with another person or continue stay with the someone you're with?
If you stay with that someone you're with,
Means you love that person alot.
If you left that person just to go with another person,
Means you don't treasure that person.
Most of my relationships,
Ends because of the way i think.
My selfishness, my childish thoughts.
This time, He end because i was told that he don't love me anymore.
Reason, because he can't take it the way how our relationship is?
I don't know. I'm just assuming things.
I miss him so much.
Even though i just saw him yesterday.
Its just not enough...
It seems like we broke up long time ago.
But the truth is, Its not even one month...
Its only a few weeks ago.
Time may go fast week by week.
But it just seems so long after we broke up.
Seeing him, the time pass so fast.
Breaking up, seems so slow..
Its as if the time is asking me not to forget about him.
His smile is still in my mind.
But my heart hurt so much..
Its like, no matter how he treat me,
I still want to be with him.
Also include his love for me.
Babe,
I'm missing you so much.
But i hope you're doing fine.
Really hope you are working hard for what you're aiming for.
Think ahead of your future.
I miss you. Also i love you. =)
.Friday, January 11, 2008
@ yoururlhere
I SAW HIM!.
I Happy.
He gave me that stupid cheeky smile while waving bye.
ARH!. I'm going crazy.
I miss his smile.
His cheeky thinking.
Oh well.
TOMORROW IS SATURDAY!
I'm going to sleep all i want.
Totally don't have enough sleep for the whole week.
School was fun.
People disturb.
Just have to get use to it and ignore them will do.
JIA YOU TO ME!
.Thursday, January 10, 2008
@ yoururlhere
School was fun.
Haha. Making more and more friends. HAPPY.
Saw Tiffany chia.
Was told that he was in the same class with her.
Saying that he is noisy and stuff.
Saying that his hair.
Just as i want to give up thinking of him and missing me.
I start seeing him and hearing things about him.
I miss him more now.
Remind me how we were last year.
How many times we got into a very very stupid fights.
How i reject meeting him in the morning.
I regret.
I seriously do.
Buts its too late.
He don't want to bother me anymore.
He don't want to hear my name anymore.
He don't want to see my msg to him.
He... don't want to see me anymore?
But all i hope is, he'll work hard and don't make the same mistake again.
I really hope he will do well.
I'll just hide in a corner to give him my moral support. =)
.Wednesday, January 09, 2008
@ yoururlhere
( Edited )
I know i haven't been saying this word,
But yet, I can't hold back anymore.
FUCK LA!
I'm holding back my tears while you keep insulting me.
Keeping back my words while you're saying me stupid.
WHAT DO YOU EXPECT FROM ME?!
You're not even perfect,
Yet you hope i'm perfect?!
You may found out that time that i got a boyfriend.
Now i don't have anymore,
Are you happy enough?!
Insult, Compare, Talk.
What else can you do?!
FUCK LA!
How much more pressure you want to give me?
I tried my best in my whole time,
Yet all you can do is compare me with others!
I'm working hard for the sake for mom as she can have most saving.
Did you even give her money to spend anot?!
Talk big asking me to study hard to go poly and stuff.
What about money!?
Do you think hearing mum says that her bank no money, i'm very happy is it?
I don't see my two other sis were troubled when they're in schools.
Why am i the one always got the worst!?
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
While jealous that she saw him yesterday,
I SAW HIM TODAY!.
Happy yet sad.
We may contact and talk like nothing.
But when we see each other,
Its a different thing.
I can tell that he don't want to see me today.
Oh well, I think he plans not to see me after we broke up.
Who knows what his thinking.
He cut his hair,
Okay i admit, He look cute.
Hais. Heart pain to see him.
He looks normal and fine,
That's good right?
I miss him .
Its not fair!
And he'll reply life isn't fair.
babe, i miss you so much.
.Monday, January 07, 2008
@ yoururlhere
Today is the first day of school.
Was different class with li min.
Hard to be friends with some people.
Somehow know one or two friend around.
Feeling so tired today.
Saw alot of friends around.
Senior, primary school, secondary school.
Food was nice.
Reach home at 6+.
Got scolded as if i went out and play.
Things just doesn't seems fair at all.
I miss him.
I miss him again.
Was told that she saw him.
Yet i lost my chance.. =(
If we didn't break.
Today was out 5th month today.
Again, i bet he don't even remember the day we were together.
I miss him.
o7o8o7...
.Saturday, January 05, 2008
@ yoururlhere
I just can't stop thinking of him.
Wasted a chance to see him in school.
Was so down. I thought i could just see him again.
I miss him so much.
Went to sec one camp to help out.
Wasn't feeling very hyper the whole time.
Only went comes to the camp fire.
I try to shout as much as i can.
So that i can lose my voice... even if just a while.
I'm sorry babe,
I couldn't keep the presents with me all the way.
I lost the small note along with my ez link card.
MY DAD THREW AWAY THE LAST LETTER ALONG WITH THE CHOCOLATE IN THE BOX.
Cried like crazy.
Panic while looking around.
Start crying when i know i lost it.
He even crush my present from bryan.
I'm so angry. I cried like no body business .
Was so heart broken.
I don't know what to do.
I only know i need your care.
I'm missing you so much..
Do you even miss me abit?
Loving you is just what my hearts wants to do.
*More than words*
-I love you , James. -
.Thursday, January 03, 2008
@ yoururlhere
I miss him.
I'm going crazy.
Freaking mad today.
This damn ugly old guy looked at me.
AND HE TOOK MY PHOTO.
WHAT THE HELL!
I was scared. DUH!
I was pist at the same time.
I don't know what to do.
I was alone.
SUCKS LA!
Buddy was worried.
He called and ask where am i and stuff.
FREAKING HELL LA!
I don't know how to react and stuff.
If i'm still with him,
I'll msg him straight away de lor.
But we're not together.
Telling him , won't make any different.
He won't come and call me.
He won't be worried about me.
He won't ask if i'm alright anot.
He won't ask me to take care of myself and etc.
MAN!. I just miss him that badly that i'll go insane!
School starting soon.
So not looking forward of going.
Asked him if he chose private or ITE.
He didn't reply.
Guess he just don't want me to continue knowing much about him.
Asking me to be back to normal ,
Its so hard. =(
Use to keep another blog to myself.
secret-kept.blogspot.com
Its for myself blogging something which last time i don't wish him to read.
Since we've broke up. i think no use keeping to myself already.
Babe. i miss you.
.Wednesday, January 02, 2008
@ yoururlhere
Happy new year.
2008.
Doesn't seems happy around.
oh well, for me. duh!!!
Miss him. I'm sorry. But i still do miss him.
Just has to keep in my heart now and on. =(
Went for church camp on Sunday,
It was kinda lame.
Timing was wrong and the activity also.
Didn't sleep the whole night on the first day.
Few of us were talking crap till morning.
Things started wasn't nice.
Seems like, everyone having problem.
Just didn't say out yet they show in the wrong way.
So did i. But, oh well...
I smile so much just to cover my tears.
Went off to meet stepherene for a while.
Got irritated easily.
Went to maria house and slack for a moment.
Was missing him so badly that it affect me too.
Stepherene went off to meet her aunt.
So i went to meet stephee.
Talk to her, while on the way to calvin's house.
was quite sleep all the time though.
Went to his house.
Saw his mother,
thought the mother will remember me, But lucky no.
Haha. It was a bad timing though. =)
Prepare everything for the bbq.
Had in mind that alot of people will be coming.
End up, just only a few of us.
two couples, three singles.
Damn sad la.
Seeing the two couple cuddling each other.
I hope i can do that.
But when i have the chance, i'll just say something stupid. =(
So just eat and talk.
Fight and quarrel around.
Talking about what we want to grow up when we're young and now.
And what happen if all of us become nurse.
All stupid kind of character come out.
LOls. Comparing issac and theo together.
Went back his house and we catch some movies.
Can't hold too long as i was like half asleep.
End up i couldn't take it.
So i just sleep.
oh well, they said that i snore!
lols. Could careless as i was SUPER tired.
Woke up with a call from stepherene.
Said that her boyfriend break up with her.
What a sad starting of a year huh.
Went to the room to check up the rest is awake.
And also i end up sleep on the floor.
I woke up at the time of 2 Pm.
Lols. They said i snore. But who cares.
Fighting with people around.
Slack, eat and play.
Time fly fast and it was 6+.
All of us went home.
Reach home and sleep.
I miss him.
Thought i can see him on the coming friday camp.
But then, it won't happen. =(
Was just hoping to talk to him normally.
That's all.
I won't go disturb him saying how much i miss him and how much i love him.
He may think i'm just bothering him etc.
I miss him so much.
I miss his character that keep disturbing me.
The way he force me to take bus and send me home.
Hais. Asking him to come back, is like 0%.
But i'm serious this time.
I was so in love with him.
I always depend on him on the wrong time.
Just as i was depending on him, he just walk away. =(
But still, i miss him.
He was the best boyfriend i've got!
Though his feeling for me is back to 0.
But he is still the best boyfriend i'm got.
He is so sweet at times.
He can be evil too.
Babe, i miss you! =(
I smile so much. Just to cover those tears.
