I found the songs that made me fell in love with you.
The songs that made me feel so comfortable and thought of you.

Made me feel so relief when i'm with you.
Made me feel so right talking to you.
I miss the fun we had.
The Message we use to send.
The moments we had.

All this song fills with memories.
How we met.
You were always there.
Making fun with each other.
How we studied together.

Having troubled talking to each other infront of related people.
Hiding that we DID contact each other.
Lie to others about things.
As if we done something bad.

We've got no idea of what we have in mind every time.
We just act normally.
Have fun with each other.
Watched movie.
Disturbing each other.

Hands were held.
Lips were touched.
Shoulders always there for me.
Love was unknown.
Untill you left, I left.
Ends up, Nothing left.
Untill i let it go.
Its all too late.

All this memories..
Its all in the past.
I've moved on.
So have you.

You have your way.
So do i have mine.

I'm happy enough with the guy i love now.
Even though problems may happen.
But LOVE is always there.
The idiotic guy in my life,
I will always treasure.
Every moment we had.
No matter long or short.
Its you and me chose this way.

I hate it when you made me chose something .
I hate it when you made me chose you over friends.

I SERIOUSLY HATE IT!

Every time you made me to chose something,
And i have to chose the answer to made you happy.
I have to chose something stupid to make you stop asking me over and over again.
I have it when you do that to me.

I've got no idea what your friends thinks about how you treat me.
You said you care. You said you love me.

You said that you're sorry for making me angry.
You knew it from the start that it will make me angry.
YOU KNEW IT ALL ALONG.

You said you'll STOP smoking on my birthday or before.
Its already September going October.
Around two months left.
I don't believe you'll stop immediately in this two months.
You aren't helping yourself to stop it also.
I'm starting to lost trust in you.

You rather buy a box.
Made me stand there like a idiot just to wait for you.
Yet you told me to go off first.
You know how hurtful i am ?!
Do you know how pist off, angry, sad and miserable?
Can you even think of how i feel before you start acting it out?
I am happy to see you.
But then, after all this..
All the emotion came again?

You said you're sorry.
I wanted to give up so much when i was on my way home?!
Do you know?!
I keep telling myself that i love you.
That's why i'm still holding on...
Sometime i keep thinking,
Is it worth it?
Do you think that is it worth it for me to do this?

We've been together for one month plus.
It seems that i've got more memory of sadness with you then happiness.
But i chose to think about the happiness more,
Even if there isn't much.
I know you care.
You just don't show out to friends around.

Tell me what can i do!
Tell me then!
When you ask if is there anything i want to ask about.
What about you?
Is there anything you want to tell about!?
Or you're just going to hide all along till the news reach my ears?!

You're the most complicated boyfriend i have.
I knew this is going to happen from the start.
But i chose you in the end instead of other guys.
You know why?
Cause i believe you will change better.!
I believe in you so much!
But what did you show me?

I keep holding on to our relationship.
I tried so hard.
So hard that i keep wanting to let go...
I'm tired to keep doing this over and over again you know?

I know you want me to be by your side.
Know more about your friends .
Before you do that,
Do you ever think how we are like?
Most of the time we talk to each other on the phone.,
We hardly go out due to our papers coming.
Due to my friends.
Due to your friends.
I'm trying to understand your feeling.
Are you trying to understand mine?

Okay, I've been watching Anime again. [ As usual. ]
LOls. Happen to watched Devil May Cry.
Their ending theme was nice.
Its all ' I'll be your home ' By Rin Oiwaka.

Don't look back
Don't regret
Time's falling out of these hands
I'll let you leave me

Call when you're back home
Cause I'll wait inside your soul
All the light to bless your way
Don't be afraid
Cause I'll be your home

In this time
In this place
This moment is all we have
And tomorrow we never know

Every precious time
Let it go somewhere away
You will learn, and you'll love
Forgive the past
And you can move on

All the distance
You've come to a place
Then you see that your home is away
Now the sun is rising
Lighting up your sky again brightly

Every precious time
Let it go somewhere away
You will learn, and you'll love
Forgive the past

Call when your back home
Cause I'll wait inside your soul
Wherever you go
Whatever you see
I'll be a good place
And I'll be your home

Today was the last day of school.
I cried terribly.
So did i cried yesterday.
I somehow influence others to cry too.
But overall, I cried most of the time.

Tears just kept rolling down.
Unable to stop it coming down.
One after another.
Eyes turn red.

Steph start crying at some part.
She was laughing from the start.
I didn't bother much.
But when i turn and looked at her,
She was crying too.

When the video of us was on,
Maria cried too.
I cried more.
Couldn't stop it too.

Lots of tissue was on the bench.
Just couldn't stop the tears coming...

Was having photo taking session.
My eyes were super red.
Teas kept rolling down.
Got pulled up on stage,
Saw Yee rou crying,
I start crying too.
All try to comfort me,
Yet everyone start to cry too.

After everything,
All of the sisters gathered.
Crying badly also.
Hug one and each other.
I tried to stop crying for a MOMENT.

Turn and looked at the girls,
I start crying again.
Hugged them and have some comforts,
Tears just kept rolling down.

Fadly start playing the guitar of ' More than words '
I start to ran down in case of more tears comes.
Shaked hands with Pastor wee , Mr Tan CW, Mr Lai and Mrs tan.
Hugged Ms Lim SP.

Start crying again.
Saw yong xin.
Wanted to just hug her and stop crying.
Who knows the more i hug her,
The more i cry.

The guys saw and asked James to comfort me.
Yet he came over and start saying me.
' Why you cry? '

Tears wiped,
Wanted to took picture with Aaron.
But, end up didn't took any.
Haha.
Went to walk around, Looking for teachers.
Talked for a moment.
Left for lurch with my 'FAMILY'

Went for steam boat with the girls at night.
Have fun...
Saw quite a few friends of mine.
Manage to have fun around.
Play around too.
Broke promises...
Stepherene was shock to see what happen too.
LOls.
Shall kept this by myself and others. =D
Went home with the smell of the meat.
Feel so tired after everything in one day.
Tears, Sadness, Laughter and Joy...
All the one day.

I'm happy enough..
I really do...

More than words.

Saying I love you, Its not the words i want to hear from you.
Its nothing that i want you, Not to say but if you only knew.
How easy, It would be to show me how you feel.
More than words, Its all you have to do to make it real.
Than you wouldn't have to say, that you love me.
Cause i already know.

What would you do? If my hearts was torn in two.
More than words to show you feel that your love for mme is real.
What yould you say, if i took those words away.
Then you couldn't make things new, Just by saying I love you.

Its more than words, Its more than what you say, Its the thing you do.
Its more than words, its more than what you say, Its the things you do.

Now that i've tired to talk to you and make you understand.
All you have to do is close your eyes and just reach out your hand and touch me.
Hold me close don't ever let me go.
More than words, Its all i ever needed you to show.
Than you wouldn't have to say that you love me.
Cause i already know.

What would you do? If my hearts was torn in two.
More than words to show you feel that your love for mme is real.
What yould you say, if i took those words away.
Then you couldn't make things new, Just by saying I love you.

The more i think about it,
The more worried i have for you.
You seems to be smilling happily,
Inside your heart, you were depress...


I still love my idiot boy. =D

One month gone,
What will happen in the future?

Today's paper was the last! [For this week only.]
I guess i'm falling sick.
Don't feel so well.

Sometime i just feel that, we're not together at all.
I got no idea of what you were doing the whole time.
People tell me that you're nearby,
my reaction was like the whatever kind.
Its like i couldn't be bothered kind.
All we does is talk on the phone.
And times, I'm the one who create problem.

I made you cry as if we're breaking up.
I cried as if i'm losing you soon.
We cried cause we care about each other.

I always predict about friends in their relationship.
But i can't predict mine.
I got caught up with my feelings.
I thought i was just feeling angry or irritated.
But actually I was just confusing myself.

I made you worried about me.
I made foolish mistake over and over again.
You always tell me that you're not jealous of any guy.
But deep down, You were jealous.
Sometime i just want to make you jealous,
Just to know that you care about me.

You said my blog was the key to everything in my life.
So now i'm saying out things that,
i don't dare or didn't have the courage of saying.
Tell me if i mistake things about you.
Tell me if you don't understand anything.
I just feel weird of having a boyfriend in the sudden.
Sometime, I don't know how should i react to things you do.

You always want me to say ' I love you'.
Maybe now i understand why.
You afraid that i might break with you and go with other guys.
I know you told me that you're jealous of HIM.
I didn't took that so serious.
Dear, I'm sorry to make you jealous in this way.
But i can assure that i only treat him as a good friend.
Like how me and gregory or yanwei are.
Please believe me.
Even if they like me or what,
Too bad and too late,
Cause i already got you now.

[ EDITED ]
I HAVE TOTALLY NOTHING TO SAY!!!
I'M PIST, ANGRY, SAD, JEALOUS!!!
I'M TELLING THE TRUTH OF HOW I FEEL NOW.
MY HEAD GOING TO BURST.
I'M GOING TO BURST OUT OF TEARS.

I'm in my bad mood term.
It is as if something happen.

I'm worried about people.
I'm worried about him.
He ask me to show him some secure,
But i don't know how to.
I don't even feel secure at times.
How do you want me to relax and rest?
I'm sorry if i did not tell you anything that you want to knwo.
But i have my own reason not to tell too.

So sorry if you think i'm not caring about you.
But i just want to stay close with my friends for now.
You want hug and kisses from me to you.
But all i can give is words that I can promise.

You want to hear what you want to.
But at times, I feel that i'm just lying to myself.
Sad, depress, tears may fall unto,
but what i want is to protect from myself.
I feel uneasy to relay on you.
I feel that i may fall anytime.
It is not easy to do this.