boo! back to write my testi le... maybe someof you guyz waitting for a new update? haha... ks ks...


let see... i feel very upset sometime...coz of mi derek never go choir... coz of he thought i was angry with him... feel so bad lor... i cozing lots of bad stuff here lor... then i don't know derek tell how many ppl that he like mi lor... lots of sec one know lor... think those who know mi then he tell? i don't know wad he thinking... telling them so that they will not fall for mi? that crazy... then is like... don't know why... i everytime will mood swing? happy for a while... then sudden change to sad... maybe coz of friend wad they said bout mi ba... i don't know lor... think i this year cry most le... yesterday cry once of something... hehe... then make someone sad also... maybe he think he feel helpless can't help mi? don't know then....think i this year can be a cry baby le ba... hehe... little things i will cry de... even if i cry... april see will feel sad also... is like... i don't know wad to say... i can be very happy outside... but... inside my heart? sad... lost... hurts? don't know... sometime is very happy coz of somethings... yesterday home econ lesson... i felt very very very bad... my class made ms foo cry... and i feel so helpless... then fadly as our chairman... was talking lor! so angry! wad kind of chairman is this... haiz... i also can't do anything le... no power over the class ba... hm... also don't know wad to write le... hehe... got tta gooo....

Yoz! back to write testi here peeps! er... lets see... yesterday quite happy la... three ppl give mi present... and yesterday is a valentine day... then one is yan wei give de... then derek... then zong yang... a big thanx guy!!! then er... quite sad lor... the table tennis match... mi and sonia never play since it started lor... then is like... left us out... don't wan to go also cannot... go also nothing to do... is just waste of time lor... haix.... also don't know lor... also don't know wad to say... ok lor... end here... buaix...

hm... let see... i also don't know wad to write here... haha... hm... don't ask mi why i wanna kill myself anymore... don't like to explain to many times... coz of last time ba... think now better... some time i wanna ask... wad is love? how does it feel like? i think i have a crush on someone... also not sure... haha... play bible poly also will laugh till siao...then know a guy name daniel... he very irritating lor... follow mi everyway i go... play table tennis he also play... play basketball also play... play board game also follow... so wad lor... then tell ah neh... he ask mi not to be too close to him... as if i wan! is really lots of thing everytime is bad de lor.. is like... i wan to live le la!!!

wad is going on in my life? i have enough of things happening in school... now my mother?! today the 40th anniveray cancel... then not easy to ask john they all come... then cancel... vincent blame mi for that lor... i keep asking them to come... i have to do lots of things lor... then he blame mi? even if is a joke... is just can't take it lor... i will take everything is true now... no matter wad you say as a joke or wad... i will be crying or angry... i totally change le... then the frist day of this month hp get ocnfiscated... then ask zong yang to leant mi his hp... then now my mum found out le... then scold mi lor... plus hit mi leh! is like... i never tell her coz she will sure scold mi de lor... everytime she scold it will be a hurting word... i just had enough lor... i feel like killing myself... i don't wan to live le... i feel to tired here... maybe i'm giving up on stuff ba... i don't know... i have the feeling of pain again... is diff... this is like... can't stop it... and plus i crying now.. i can't stop myself... i just don't know...