haix... let say that.. i'm really changed? finally someone tell mi if i'm changed or not... is like... ye xiang say i changed good... say i last year very easy angry... then this year not so easy to be angry... then today... i don't really remember wad i say or did at table tennis room... after i play finish... joey say like... er... ze suan... you don't look like ze suan le... i think as in... i don't be like wad i use to be? i don't know... i really think i'm changing... plus my life also... i really wan to know wad is going on... God... pls help mi...

then is like... kind of surprise... two guyz ask mi for stead lor... then is like... i don't know wad to do... one is sec one de... one is sec two de... i really don't know lor... is like... my mind now is mix up again? all i can answer now is don't know here and there... i wish someone will come infront of mi... and help mi to put in propurly... i became to be bad... starting to cry lots bout small thing...

yoz! back to update how is my day le... haha... er... today ar... starting very sianz... then angry... then happy again lor...

ok la... start with sianz...(as usual) haha... at class nothing to do... then angry is that... very stupid lor... they say going to ang mo kio central eat de... then ok... i put my back... then forget to take back my hp... then call them to wait... then i go take my hp... then go back to table tennis room there... all go disappear... is like... less then five min lor... then make mi go around to look for them... then i give up... i so angry lor... then i go table tennis early... then play play... then they come back... i was so angry lor... is like... i hate ppl that pang seh mi lor... somemore this time is second time le lor...they cannot like... i very forgiveful then can do it again and again lor... starting 2+ joey sms mi say sorry... then one of them is starving... then call mi to join us... wad a stupid reason lor... you tell other ppl who will believe?

then they keep saying sorry... joey come talk to mi... say wad... i can remeber a little wad she say.." ze suan... really sorry leh... don't know wad to say... wait.. let mi think why we go of coz cannot look for my wallet.." i was like... this stuff also need to wait then look for reason de meh? i plan this go out and eat... then at last all pangseh mi... thought wad?! i not important at all la... meant all use mi de la... then act infront of mi de la? haiz... then marcus talk to mi...i never reply... coz i going to cry le... (sorry marcus) then don't wanna talk.. then go toliet to cry lor... cry le... then go back... then a while i go another staff toliet and wash face... then sonia and angela out side.. then keep ask mi ok or not.. then say wad i feel like doing..then i say nothing... then sonia say... ok... lets do nothing... then i start laughing le... then i squat down and laughing covering my face... then sonia thought i cry again... then go back to the toliet to take tissue for mi.. haha... then came out... she found out i was laughing... at least i'm not angry and crying wad... ahha...

ok la...thats all i have in today... will see how tml is... yup... buaiz..

yoz peeps... just back from school... boring! life is so boring... nothing to do... teacher don't know teach wad... then feel like quiting table tennis..is like... this year... i try my best le... then guess wad the teacher say? sec one tiffanys and qian hui...adelene... angela... and the three single... then mi and sonia is going to be reserve... i heard that i feel like crying... is like... i try so hard... and yet i still reserve... and for table tennis being a reserve is no use de... nothing is going to happen when match is there... for sure de... then is... the couch also don't care mi and sonia... then how to improve then he don't care? we train our own... also will pull the others away...we never go china so? is like... is totally sucks lor... they onli care of wining... didn't care bout their players... last year... after our last match of 2004..mr tan say never mind... next year will still have to play...

now? total change... i and sonia is just a extra there... no use being there le... so my brian is sure of it... that I'M QUITING TABLE TENNIS! no cca point then don't have lor... like i said last time... i hate ppl that treat ppl like for paper... you write write... later... can throw liao... is like hurting ppl lor... i don't know wad to do now... haix...

long time never update again... hm... actually... lots of things to say... onli i don't know how to phrase it...haix... lots of stuff i'm confuse.... i don't know wad is love feel like anymore... is like... that time i say i like a guy... then i suddenly ask myself... is it i really like him... or is just a like as a friend... then i don't know lor... haiz... don't know wad to do... this is no one can help mi... haiz... then school days... totally sucks... day by day... kana two hours school service... i also think... am i the one changing or the teacher that put mi School service changing...haiz...

then just yesterday just fight with chin hao... he sucks! i intro xin yu to him... then as usual... ask xin yu for number then wan to talk to her on the phone... then he everytime call mi to call xin yu to call him... or sms mi say when she reach home call him... why can't he do it himself? he hurt mi the worst time is the time on my birthday... he make mi cry ... i admit.. i emotionnal gal... easy to cry... he go insult mi say wad i'm a bitch... then wad stupid stuff come out... COME ON! my birthday he say that to mi... he don't know how i feel... i get insulted in school... now him? and yet he still dare to say that he is my good friend... Good friend will not ask ppl to do that... yeah... forgive and forget... he did so much stuff... i did forgive and forget... wad bout him? do he actually know how i feel? ppl have limits... once i forgave him he will do it again... he totally sucks... and i thought he is my good friend... now i know his true colour of himself... i really don't know wad to do bout him le... haix....

sianz... so sianz at home... no one to chat with mi... then homework have to do ... hm... to go na... i must study hard... yes! hm... but... cannot keep studying wad.. must relax for a moment de... yup.. haiz... sianz... daes pass so slow.. then some ppl injured in their heart... haiz... don't know... not much things happen lor... thats all... buaiz..

'I SAY PHS WE'RE HOT! WE CAN'T BE STOP! WE GO FRONT GO BACK GO CAN'T BE STOP! I SAY PHS WE'RE HOT! WE CAN'T BE STOP! WE GO LEFT GO FIGHT GO CAN'T BE STOP!'

OPPS!!!("o)

sorry... any way... yoz peeps! haha... how are you guyz?! just came back from training... haha... very busy day this few weeks... haha... hm... wednesday got training... then at night got camp... for befriender and HPT... very tiring...sleep at 1++.. then eraly in the morning 5.55AM wake up...get ready... report at the CCA room outside...then got three different group to welcome the sec one ... then my group is to go all the way to MRT station... then one by one... talk to a few students... then have to report le... sianz... also tiring.... i took the class 1 AGAPE(ROX!) to be their befriender..kinda mad at them.... most of them don't listen to us... and we have to shout at them... we didn't meant to... but...we can't help it... game played... few injuried... few cry of some stuff...

at night... the gal sleep at the hall and the guyz sleep in their class room...( poor guyz) then 1 or 2++ then sleep... some even longer.. some never sleep at all! next morning... wait up... have to rush our class to the hall... they can't join the school at the prade square coz they're not wearing school uniforms... after that is their breadfirst... then most of us help out to put stuff up for the next game... the next game is call TP Rescue... not really fun... but i think this content them to have teamwork in their class! haha... hm... is like... time really pass fast! second day... after that game... so some stuff... then go gather at the hall... even some part of it does not let us enjoy it... BUT!it let us know more bout them... and let them know that... all of us is a family... no matter wad... WE ARE A FAMILY! YEAH!

after that... got a debreif... then half way... then we go liao... after that... i faster take my bag.. then put in table tennis... then chen ning appear coz of the 40th aniversary PHS back stange stuff..then tell her le... guess who i saw?! HIM!!! ah!!!... see him smile so cute... very cute lor... very less guyz smile very cute de lor...hehe... then go eat... eat le... go back... training... then halfway through qurreal with sonia...then lucky after that... then break... i fast went to the nearest toilet and cry... i totally very sad lor... plus tired... hm... don't wanna say why that happen..then is like... lucky not much ppl saw i cry lor.. or i'm dead! haha...

hm... tomorrow is Ching hui birthday! don't wanna buy wad for her... haha...hm... don't wanna say much bout now...

yoz peeps...here to update my blog le! happy? haha... hm...today is the first day of school... quite sianz lor... starting i go school with ChZe SiNg... first i do is to laugh at those who just promoted to sec three... coz the guyz wearing long pants ... then i was there laughing... see one laugh laugh laugh... haha... i crazy gal! yeah! haha.. hm... after laughing... have to went up to the hall... (coz raining) then very excited to know who is our form teacher this year... then until they say the form of 2005 will do the spot check..then MS LIM came...and... haix... SHE IS OUR FORM TEACHER!!!! can you believe that?! she our form teacher... so suay lor... haiz...

then very sianz lor... the introduction also sianz de... then chose who is chairman all that... i kinda sad... coz i'm not in chairman or vice... i don't know why now i like being a chairman or vice so much... think is that... i like running around ba... haix... too bad lor... didn't get in... have to move on my life ba... hmm... yup.... then after school... sianz... got training... hm... then i don't have PE SHIRT... then ask from chen ning... she leant mi... is RED!!! i was like... SOMEONE IS GOING TO WU HUI LOR!!! haiz... but bo bian... then i just wear lor...then change le go training... just keep seeing him lor... hehe... can't really forget bout him... hehe... then play games lor... play with lip kai... he hai mi de... i play with him then his face black black de... then i also play face black black de... after that... i keep losing lor... then is like... very sad lor... keep on losing... then after play finish bout 3-4 match... still on the same table... of coz very very sad... then go out of table tennis room cry a little... then faster go back to the table... then play play.. lose 2 match le... then more sad... then go out of the table tennis room again... and cry more... is like... i feel very wad lor... keep on at the same table..then wanna cry like that lor..haiz... so sad lor... very sad till last part... train with coach..then run here and there... then very funny... then start to laugh le lor... hehe... then go home saw some teachers lor... then lucky haven't take out my hand phone... haha... lucky mi! haha.. then go home using come and listening to songs lor... hehe... have to go le... bauiz...

yoz peeps! haha... back to update my stuff... just change my blogskin... nice? haha... for mi is nice... you? don't know...:P...

new year is here! haha... and school reopen! miss mi fwendz... haha... so happy now... don't know why... feel like that... is really past long ago...hm... think that's good? new year le... will be busy...hm... feel very relax... i think i'm back to the happy old mi again and not the sad and impatient gal? ahha... don't know... nothing to write much now... buaiz...