Well. I guess its another one of my story. I don't know what i can i say here. I was confuse cause of someones action. I think its better then keep it in my heart then typing out. Its been two days already. I'm still thinking what is he thinking in his mind. I don't get it at all. Seriously. Not even abit. I thought he is a nice guy. He IS a nice guy. But till that day. I don't know what can i say about him anymore.

Went movie with him on monday. Actually cause i wanted to see him. Hehe. Yeah. We catch a movie. When we got in. They were still play adverdisment. So we just sit down. He was tired. So i asked him to sleep first. Then he lie on my shoulder. Smiling . After that. In the meddle of the movie. I was saying him. He start tickling me. After that his hand landed on my shoulder. As if we were a couple. After that he start tickling me again. And this time landed on my waist. I was like. GOSH! what to do! . But since i likes him. So its okey for now. After that. He make me lied on his shoulder. I was abit happy. Saying to myself that how i wish we can continue stay like this. End of the movie. Its still abit dark. He was covering my eye and making my nose. He looked at me smiling nicely. I was like. what is it going on . Suddenly. He just kiss me. My head was like, ' What is it happening now?! Aren't we gone too far? and i thought he isn't this kind of guy.' By the way he kiss, can tell that it isn't his first kiss. And i was thinking. Does he like me in the first place?! After the movie, we were like nothing happen just now. He was sick that day and fell down cause of his work. But all he say to me is ' Cause of you, I sick i still come leh! Cause of you, my back bone hurts i still come leh. ! Cause of you, i'm tired and i still come leh!' . I really don't understand him. Not now anymore. I thought those kind of girls that he like was those nice and gentle and kinda classical kind. I really don't get it anymore. But i still like him now.. I guess..

Well.. i'm back about blogging i guess. Just came back from outside with friends. Went job interview. Hoping that i can get in? Haha. Went to cine After that. Met up with the rest of the guys. As usual. Play around. Talking to each other. Was a big group today. Yups. Nothing much happen today.

To the main point that i wanted to say. I'm so FUCK up. I'm real pist now. Pist till i feel like slaping him. He bloody ass-hole . Do he know the word privacy?! Cause of him, I've already change my address three time. What the Fuck that he wan from me? Can't believe i'm in the same group as him. Fucking pist off. He is the worst guy i ever seen in my whole life. I rather die if i'm force to married him. He just don't know what's the word that call respect issit? Do i have to slap him and wake him up the he'll understand? If that can wake him up. I'll do it. Saying himself is innocent? Does he know what that word means?! Why everytime i have to face this stupid kind of problem. How tough it may be. Every time, if i talk to pastor wee about it. Never once fail. that i never cry. What do he actually want from me?! I don't bother if he go around telling people that i'm his girlfriend. I don't bother if he likes me. Just keep it to himself. Why must he try to do things as if nothing will happen. Do he even think about how i feel?! Want to act as if he understand. He don't understand anything at all!! What the fucking hell he want from me?! Scolding my friend big mouth. What about you?! Self-fish, non understandable. No where better. Seeing people suffer now. Are you happy? Happy enough to stop all this FUCKING STUFF?! People have limits. You doing it too over limit. You understand that? I don't bother who you tell about me scolding you all this. I don't bother what others think of me either. All i want what happen now is YOU FUCK OFF OF MY LIFE!!

Well, Its been while since i've blog huh. Trying to keep this blog secretly. But somehow people manage to find it. So be it then. Since they wan to know how's my life have been. Just keep it to yourself and don't ask any question after reading it. Yeah.

Have been staying at home past few days. Really can't take it. All i can do at home is to use computer and sleep and eat. That all. Slack around too much . Nearly faint as blood can't flow properly. Yeah. Only told some of my friends. Yeah. Well, Went out with song ern on monday to vivo. I'm alright with it as i don't have any plans i guess. Yeah. Was kinda fun going out with him. Haha. Yeah. Went walking around. Saw a ship that we can go in and walk about. Was quite boring. They onli allow us to walk certain areas. Yeah. End up where fighting over a stairs. LOls. How silly of us. Lols. After that. Went to plaze sing. Hmm. as usual, Walk around.. went to yamaha piano shop. He was playing some nice music. While i'm trying to play ' yu jian '. Didn't know that he heard what i was trying to play. Then he continue for me. Nearly cry.. But just trying to laugh to cover it up. Haha. After that went to watch flush away with him. Since we got nothing better to do. After that went home straight. Kinda sad. Haha. But so be it then. I got this chance to go out with him. Then i'll take it. Haha. Yups. Hmm. I guess i'll stop blogging here.

Oh yeah. I'm looking for job. Anyone have any intro? pls msg me. Thanx!

Hmm. today is the day which really made me sad.. 0511. The date that lock in my heart. Haix.. Some how that i can't really forget about it. He is the guy let me fell in love with him and put my thoughts away. Now think about it. Its all Gone. Some time i miss him.. Around this time.. In 2005.. I'll be on the phone with him. Talking till late night. Haix. i really miss it.

Today norman asked me. Why everytime i go town? Not boring at all? . Actually made me think about it. I answered him. ' Coz there filled with memorise.. Which i can't forget..'. I think again. And tell myself that... Its the para machine that filled most of the memories. I wonder if everyone remember it anot. Will they treasure what they have now? Even if they don't... I'll still treasure every single thing and people around me..

Yesterday was maria's birthday. Went to celebrate . Along with... Shaun, yan wei, mark , joseph, dickson, asree , ain and me. Went to the cathay to watch DEATH NOTE. Its was nice. Bought maria her fav sly. Then shaun gave her chocolate, her manager gave her bracelet. Yups. We have our fun time to take photos. really love it. Some how. I feel that we won't be to bond together anymore. mark's leaving for private o. shaun is full of friends around.. Haix. i'm not sure about myself. We shall see how.. yups...