Its only a few days that i'm already having problems of me and him. Partly is my fault. Actually don't even have his problem from the start. Maybe i'm too stress. Not getting use to it by a guy treating me like that. What the hell is going on with me? Sometime i just to wish to be alone. haix. what can i do....

Seriously. I don't know is this my correct feeling anot. I'm now with him. Is it too good to be true that i have a boyfriend that love me that much or i just accept him coz just wan to make him happy? seriously. I don't know. Hope time would tell me what to do ba..

Okey. I shall not be lazy to blog from today onwards. Lots of things have been happening around.

Lets start with this guy name Jia Wei. I knew him through Qin xiang. Why i will suddenly say about Qin Xiang? All started with Felicia and friends. She called me. Ask me want to go Admiralty to meet them as their playing basketball with some people there. I say Okay. On Saturday morning, I met them at macdonal. Saw Qin Xiang first. Wave hello to him. Walk to Felicia and friends. Suddenly Andrew went to talk to Qin Xiang. I was like to confuse as how on earth did andrew knew Qin Xiang. Then found out in the end that they met each other on IRC. Then decided to come out and play basketball together. After that went to a basketball court near by. Saw two guys wearing red shirt. Its was Jia Wei and Zhen Hui. After that they played basketball for a few hours. Felicia and I was called to go buy drinks for them. GRRR.. BULLY GIRLS! Okay okay. Back to the point. As we were told that once we cross a road and pass some blocks. We will see a shop that sell drinks. So okey, We follow it. After a moment, we saw the stall. We bought drinks. After that Felicia say that she don't want to go back first. Wanted to smoke first. I was fine with it. After she finish her stick. We went back . Walk for a few steps. Found ourself that we're lost. After a moment of thinking where we walk from. Then we found the way back.PHEW! haha. After a while, the guys were done of the games. Went under a block to talk. Was very crappy. haha. I was there talking crap also. Hahah.

Few days later, i was talking to Jia wei as Qin Xiang said that he wanted to back out the basketball. So was talking to him for a few hours. He start asking me that do i have feeling for me. As i was thinking that he had a girlfriend from a start. So i thought he was joking with me. So i say no. Two days after. QX came and talk to me saying that someone like me. I was thinking. I was talking to Zhen Hui. But we're just friends. Also can't be Jia wei as he had a girlfriend. So i had no idea which guy he was refering to. Then he told me its was Jia wei, I was in total shock. After a while Jia wei admit to me that he like me . I was so confuse. He got a girlfriend and now he is telling me that he like me? They must be kidding ryt? After that jia wei explain everything to me. Telling me what actually happen. Then i was like. Okey. Find. I understand and mean while feeling start to grow.

He gave me a BIG baby taz on wednesday. I was like OMG! what on earth did he buy that for me. Its damn big. Plus i wasn't feeling good. So i was like scolding him? lols. talk awhile. then he hold on to my hand. Was kinda emberass. After that he said some words i was so paiseh about. Then my mother called. Ask me to go home. So i had no choice to go home. Start to miss him. Hahaha...

grr.. this feel days.. being so busy.. plus having more and more stress. coz of the new team. [ unraivlled.] only one week. alot of things happen. i really don't know how long i can take it. school stuff quite busy for me le. thought outside one no need to complicated. its like. worst then school de la! haix..

should i stead with a guy? when i just know him? its like. i onli met him once. then he fell in love with me already? things happen. i don't know wan to believe it anot. haix.. tell me what can i do now? haix..

FUCKING PIST! ALL THIS YEARS. THIS IS WHAT I FIND OUT ABOUT FRIENDSHIP. NOW I KNOW THAT I WASN'T IMPORTANT FOR YOU AT ALL. THIS IS HOW YOU TREAT ME.

ME: IS THIS WHAT YOU CALLED FRIENDSHIP?
APRIL: THEN DON'T CALL IT LA!

All this years. so this is how you treat friendship. sadness. teary eye. just this question i ask you. we end up like that. i think its mean nothing at all as you already got roslee. I'm just a spare tyre to you. thank you for treat me like that...