haix.. i'm still mishing him lots.. thinking of him everytime... after we broke up.. i feel so empty... i don't know why.. asked april to bite... thought it will hurts.. but still doesn't... i'm treating ppl coldly also.. haix...think is mye fualt by not listening and talk to jaimy ba.. haix.. if i didn't talk to jaimy... this won't happen de.. haix.. why must it happen like that? haix.. plus.. i guess he don't like mi ba... he say his own that he try to like mi.. or he thought he will like mi? haix.. i know why were not meant to be.. and we will not be together again ba... why we have to start of stead.. if is not like that.. i think mi.. him and KK will still be friend.. as in saturday will play basketball or hangout together... haix.. but now.. never go out le.. never talk to them very long also.. haix.. so sad also.. haix... life is like that de ba.. lol...

ok.. i got one big bad news... haix.. today 8th dae... break with him liao... haix... very very sad... cry alot... wan to kill myself... arg!!!!

ok.. i got good news and bad news... which should i say first... i guess is the good news first ba...

ok! good news first...
ok.. on 10th of august.. i stead with edwin.. that's great ryt? hehe... then go out with him and kk on saturday[13th august] ... see they all play initial D.. quite boring.. but still happi.. at least can be with him...then pei mi go yck.. then go le... hehe...

ok.. good news is this le.. here come the bad news...
is that.. there is a misunderstood between both of us.. haix.. i don't know why i go ask stupid stuff... i feel bad.. very bad.. i don't know wad can i do... to turn it to be normal again... just feel like killing myself for doing that also... i'm so dump!!! haix...

haix... why am i heart broken everytime when most of my friends start their happi days fast and long... and i'm here... can't find anyone that can last long... maybe is the guy in my heart de ba... been missing him... seen him more and mroe less... last year.. don't wan to see him... sure will see him... this time... wan to see him but can't... haix... i know we will never be together de.. i know that.. i just don't know why i can't give up on him... maybe i know him too long and stay like that? haix.. i don't know.. my head hurts... if you wonder how scary it could be to reject guys at once... even you have no choice... and not telling them who i like... i really wondering how am i like in the past when relationship haven't started... i feel that i'm numb... as in... april bite mi... had a mouth mark on my hand... but i don't feel any pain... the mark was still there till after school... i don't know... i know life will have to go on... but i'm lost again... no in the darkness... i'm still in the light... but i don't know which way i wish i can walk... i need a patner with mi... tell he or her my problems... and he or she can really help mi with it... having headache easily... i can't relay on my friends too much also.. they themselve also have problems... haix.. i don't know wad to do with it...