yesterday went to sentosa with :

wad shout i say here? oh yeah.. sunday i was having some problems with calvin ryt? then when i msg him the next day.. he didn't reply mie! i was like.. wad is wrong with him now.. don't reply mi.. ok.. then i stay calm.. go home.. at nite i call him la.. i ask him why didn't he reply didn't he reply mi today.. he say his batt flat le.. i don't know should i believe him anot.. then i was like.. ok.. i believe you now.. then i ask him.. wad do he treat as.. he was like ' don't tell you leh... tell you next time la..' say i say just tell mi la.. as if anything will happen to you like that... then you know wad he say? 'eh... eh... i ..i ... now got.. got... got... eh.. tai ji... eh.. tell.. you next time ok?' i was like.. fake also not fake till like that de lor.. then i say ok.. then hang up.. next day.. i didn't msg him at all as i know he won't reply mi de.. then i went down to cine.. with sing and yuru.. then walk walk.. go back school for coral night ushering.. then when i was changing.. he called.. and he told mi that his in hospital now.. don't call him for a few days.. i was like HOSPITAL?! WAD HAPPEN?! then he seems to be like having lots of pain.. then i say ok lor.. then at night.. when mye job is done.. 8 like that.. he call mi again.. say need to go for operation.. say his arm broke! so xin tong lor.. haix... then talk to him for a while.. then say his hand very pain.. can't talk le.. next day i go visit him..

then i was on mye way in.. i look in .. i guess who i saw?! his parents!! i was like.. ah!! his parents is inside!! then i was so scared, i wanted to go call tiffany.. then his father came out and say' excuse mie.. are you looking for calvin?'.. i was like..' er.. yeah.. but i need to make a phone call first'.. wah liao! so scary lor.. then i went out of the ward.. sit on a chair.. then wanted to call le.. then his dad come out..' er.. wad's your name? calvin wan to know who ..' then i told him my name.. then straight away call tiffany!! i was like.. ah!! his parents in there! don't dare to go in.. !! how how how?! then fadzli was like.. chill! just go in.. his parents won't eat mi. ok, his parents sure that they won't eat mi up or do anything.. but.. HIS PARENTS?! haix.. then talk half way.. his parents came out.. say going for lurch.. ask mi to go in.. then i was like... ok..i'll go in.. i hang up the phone.. then i push the door open.. and there ! the first word he said to mi...'PEAK A BOO!'i was like.. he still can say this is already not bad le la.. lol.. then sit down.. look at him.. and his arm.. so ' xin tong ' lor.. haix.. then he ask mi to hold his hand.. then say his hand very pain all that.. well.. i can tell that! haix.. then he say that his parent know that we both are together! ah!! so paiseh lor... hehe.. then his parent came back! and we're still holding hands! i was like.. should i let go? then i look at him.. his still holding on mye hand.. then i was like.. ok.. continue hold lor.. then i was like.. so paiseh!! ar!! lol.. i'm crazy! haha.. then his father was say wad..' since SHE is here.. then no us to pei le la..' then he very funny leh.. tell his mother ' ok.. then at nite come back k? must pei mie.. coz she can't stay till very late also..' haha.. i was like.. ok.. yeah.. but can't he be alone for a moment? haha.. as if he will die like that.. lol...

then his parents left le.. left the two of us.. then we look at each other.. then talk talk talk.. then he keep say himself is useless.. useless boyfriend he is..uesless.. can't help mi take mye bag next time.. all the useless stuff he say out.. i wanted to cry lor.. is like.. he useless?! i more useless then.. i don't even understand him now.. and now his mye boyfriend?!haix.. then i can tell he wanted to cry.. i just can't hold on mye tears.. nearly row down.. then he saw.. he was like.. don't cry la... then he use his left hand that had a needle on.. he rub gently mye cheek.. and then mye eyes.. i feel so comfortable with him everytime.. haix.. hope we can be together long ba.. i can't say forever.. coz nothing last forever de.. yup.. then after that his friend came and visit him.. then after awhile.. i pei her go to taxi stand.. then i go up lor.. awhile later then i go le.. give him a kiss.. when everytime we are going home .. haha.. then went home.. feel so xin tong lor.. haix..

hmm... ok... i just realise that everytime i start mye blogger with the word ' haix '. But it just can't be blame. Who ask myself have worry days.. sad days... angry dayss.. disappointed days..i don't know wad am i talk about also.. arh!! *bang the wall* ok ok.. think i'm better after banging the wall? hmm...

ok. lets talk bout yesterday first.. i went to school in the morning.. have bible study.. then meet tiffany and joshua.. then go find her dad.. then go cine.. walk walk.. joshua saw lots of his school prefect.. then his leg pain.. tiffany not feeling well.. then they both go le.. pang seh mie.. then i very sian.. pull chze sing come cine with mie.. then while waiting for sing.. i go walk walk.. then saw mye senior wai keong! so happy.! very long never talk to him and the rest le. then go walk walk.. talk to him.. then sing reach le.. go traffic there look for her.. then wai keong follow.. then saw dear dear and luke.. then i was talking on the phone with sing wad.. then ask dear dear to wait.. then thought wad he walk so fast then go le.. then mie go find sing lor.. then find liao.. go arcarde look for dear dear.. ask him wad happen.. he don't care mi lor! then after luke finish playing para para.. they just go without looking at mie lor! i was so angry i go toilet and wash face and tell myself.. i'm not going to cry anything when i haven't find out everything.. then when mi and sing go walk walk.. he call mi ask mie wad time i going home.. i wanted to scold him ' wad is wrong with you! one second you was so dao.. then the second you treat mie back to normal..' then i meet him.. go somerset.. then we go our own way le..i go home.. he go plaza sing... then go home ask him wad actually happen.. then he say coz he thought i go out with mye senior don't wan to go out with him..... ok .. it might be mye fault that i so call don't care him yesterday ..

but you know wad happen today?! i went cell group.. then go cine with sing.. cherlene and kor.. then they don't wan to go up wad.. then i go look for dear dear lor.. first second he was so nice to mie..then tiffany they all come.. wan to pei mi go look for dear dear.. then they were going to walk around wad.. then ask mi go along.. then i ask tiffany they all how.. i don't wan to pang seh them wad.. then he just say wad.. don't care them la.. he may not like tiffany and joshua.. but can't he just keep his comment to himself.. and don't show it to tiffany and joshua? haix.. i was like.. wad is wrong with him?! ryan and fadzli and someother ppl came over ask mi to follow.. then say wad.. coz tiffany is here he wan to go another place.. i was like.. wad?! how can he say this! plus infront of tiffany lor! i was going to cry lor.. ryan and fadzli say they will help mie.. i trust them.. they have more experince then mie.. they should know wad to do.. so they go first while i go toilet wash face.. AGAIN.. haix.. then i ask tiffany and joshua to pei mi go buy contact len solution.. while going out of cine.. ryan and edsion was sitting there.. ask mi don't be sad coz they will help mi.. then ask mi am i ok anot.. is so nice of them.. i know i trust the correct ppl.. then i don't know who is the ass hole F***ing jerk go shout say.. 'go back to shawn there la..' i was like.. wad the fuck! this time you still can tell mi this stuff?! then wan to cry le lor.. haix.. like i say.. i won't cry when i don't know wad is really going on .. then go buy solution le.. then going home sing call mi.. then they say they eating there.. then i go look for them.. think of eating with them.. then i sit down.. keep quite.. then i told them i go home first.. and so now i'm at this boring home with no one home.. ar! i'm so hungry lor.. haix.. i don't wan anything to happen to mi and him lor... i don't wan to make mye owe mistake also.. so i'll just let the time and God take over this ba..

haix. i'm so worry bout dear dear. haix. feel like crying lor. but is at outside. can't cry in public you know. haix. very scared ppl go irritat him then he beat up that person. haix. [tiffany & joshua : sorrie of wad happen and thank you for you guys patients!] really very worry bout him. i don't wish anything bad happen to him. haix. i'll be happy if he stay happy and don't learn bad. haix.. i don't know wad to say also . just miss him alot .. having more deep feeling for him! muack!

haix... wad's on mye mind? haix... i'm full of guilty... i'm confuse wad is good or bad now...haix!! ok... first of all... i really wan to say sorrie to mye sister.. think i type without thinking ba... realy really sorri if i hurt you.. haix... i don't know how to p ut in place now also...

saturday i'm going back malaysia again!!! is good and bad? bad can't see mye friends... good... see mye cousin again?i go back... i will be extra again.. haix... all atention to mye sisters again ba... hmmm.... well.. also don't know wad to say.. now exam leh!!! haix..