yesterday went to hui min birthday party[bbq]. before go there. i had some meeting with the councils bout planning of the post exam activity. starting we were crapin around. but after that we start to think. we try to make it hard for them. as evil thinking as we can. but try to make it fun for them too.! after planning for sec ones.. our brain turn blank for sec two and threes. lols. after that. we think of watching some funny movie and stuff. it might get to be abit boring. but we just can't think of anything le. after that. i went off half way to meet mei chin and yu wen.. thought it will be such a suffer to travel with them. but i was wrong. yu wen was kinda nice ba. but sometimes. she do stuff without thinking. we took bus. and talk lots of crap. then found out that the bus reach marine square. we have to alight. then we don't know how to go. and decided to take taxi go.

when we reached there. its like no one is there. onli saw sherman, feng ying and bernard. then we called hui min they all come back. after that we were walking around... riding bike and eating. lols. after that. eugene they all came. not having much fun though.. they play their own stuff.. we do our stuff. at least most of them have their own happy things to do. but me? troubled. worried and sad... i wished he was with me that time. at least we can talk somethings. haix.. missing him so badly. i told him i miss him so much that day.. the reply he gave me was,.. don't miss me too much.. later get love sick.. i don't know wad can i do also. i've made him become like that. i wish he will be back how he was. how sweet he was. after that time he ask me.. a word 'don't know' can hurt me and him so much and make us turn to moodless and sad most of the time. haix. i don't know what can i do now. moodless all day long. nothing to do all day long. all i just wish for is that he will be back to how i know him from the start. and we can start all over again. tears may just roll down .. but.. i just wan him to be happy... that's all wad i wish for ...for now..