Okey.This few days i have been feeling sad. Feel like crying. Just can't seems to be crying. Feeling very misserable. Sometime i just miss him so much. Some time i feel like i'm nothing to him. Everytime i said that to him. He will say something which make me want to cry. His words. Makes me think of the past we had. I really miss those past. Really do. But i know that i can't change anything now. Not anymore. I didn't expect him to like me back. I don't wan it to happen also. Its been three month past. Still loving him alot. Its like how i suffer when i'm in love with luke deeply? Haix. My problem now its like the same. But the thing is that i did stead with luke. But i didn't stead with roy. Coz of my rejection of confuseness. Things haven't be okey since. I feel like. I did stead with him awhile. Just as a while. Till he gave up on me. Broken hearted.

School life its quite stress. Slowly getting more and more busy. My basketball girls is going to be me in charge since chen ning is going for N levels. All i can give or train them its their phyical. I don't really know how to train them on basketball. I forgot all those things i've done. Sometimes i just wonders, am i looking down on them or what? I feel sad if i think of them like that. But i don't wan them to happen to what i think of them. I want them to prove me wrong about it. Don't let me be correct.