Loving someone can be so painful. Why am i loving someone again and again? Geting myself hurt again and again? I just don't get it. After losing someone who is always there by side since i was born till last year. I've feel that i've change. Not the girl that can smile to everyone and say hi everytime i meet them. I'm not the girl who can smile and do things happily and become the girl that close the door and cry every single time. From someone tolerate to a furious girl everytime. What has happen to me now? Cry is all i can do. Love is all i can say.

I've stop having relationship after i broke up with derrick. Even i fall in love with roy ever since till now, i didn't give a chance for me and him being together. I'm to scared to be in one relationship again. Ever try losing someone that you truely love and lost them in a sudden? How painful it was? You can waste time or even days just because of that someone. Not saying others. But saying about myself. After last year exprience on my birthday. I've start saying that i'm a jinx that bring nothing good but curses.

Even though i fall in love with roy from the month of april till this day today. I bring him nothing good but saddness and pain. After hurting him. Me myself have been moodless. Not giving anyother guys a chance. Being so called self-centred. I believe that, even if one day i'm not around. No one will notice it. I'm no one to everybody heart. Accept God.

Whatever i've done for people. No one thank me and no one remember what i have done. Its like, one second they remember me. Another second they don't remember anything and treat me like a... Dream. While you're in your dream, of couse you will remember. When u wake up, u don't remember anything else. Like, whatever i organise and i ask other's to help me with stuffs. They will thought the helpers is the organiser. Maybe i just need people attention. But can't i be someone that people will remember for good? Will i have that day ?

Even if people read this. I think their mind will be laughing at me or start saying bad things about me. But this is what i think in my heart. So if you think is funny. Laugh all you want. I can't be bothered by you jerks. Not happy about my blog? Simple. DON'T READ IT! If you understand this simple stuff. I think u can Go back to your primary school and learn things all over again. Or i think even a primary school kid will be understanding then people like this. Advise for people mind are like that. Grow up!