What dose love means to you? Is it relationship in your mind when you think of love? Form the time i really lost someone i love. I'd felt that Love doesn't mean for relationship only. It apply to people around me. Friends that i've lost now. Family members. That's now what i truely care for. Relationship in my mind. I don't dare to think about it. Its not that i'm feelingless. Its just that. I'm afraid i fall in love with someone again and myself hurt again. I hardly trust anyguys words. Like what my friend says. Good looking people are for people to see. Don't need to be so Despo to so called know them.

I've change. Change to someone from back to worst. So i've decided to leave cine gang. Which now i lost a Banch of Big Group of friends. Haix. I may look happy every single time people see me. But in my heart, i am sad, crying and alone. No one understand me. No one know how i feel. They thought by telling me that they like me that i'll feel happy. But it onli add burden to me. Burden that i have to hurt another person again. People might that that i'm happy that guys like me. But they didn't know every single time i reject someone. I'm crying. Cause its my friend that i hurt. My own friend. Sometime i just wonder. Having a relationship. What's the used? What is the Advantage? I still don't get it. I really don't...