Have been working three day straight.
Met new friends.
Have fun with them.
Only some have been a trouble-maker to me.
Retards and never grow up.

Work three days straight.
5+7+16 = 28
28 hours of work which is $ 5.50
Which means i've earn $154 only.
Tomorrow working 8 to 6.
Which means 10 hours.
$154 + $55 = $209.
It doesn't seems enough.
It seems like i've been working for SO long.
But this is what i get.

His birthday is drawing near.
I've got no idea what to do.
I've got no idea what should i say to him.
The stuff he wish to happen on his birthday.
It just seems so hard for me to fulfill his wish.
I just couldn't do it.
He was disappointed.
I know this all along. Yet i just want to act tough.
I don't know what i want now.
I don't know how to face him now.

3 month drawing near.
Its only 3 months yet i'm already thinking to giving up.
How useless can i be.
Its even less then 100 days.
How long of us being together, Doesn't bother him.
He wish to last long now.
He is full of confident now.
Yet i'm lack of confident to be with him.
I've lost track.
I've lost my way to find my confident now.
I got no idea what should i tell him.
I got no idea what should i say.
Words like ' i love you ' ' i miss you ' ' Muack '.
Its just deceiving us.
I got no idea what you're thinking.
You got no idea what am i thinking either.

Thinking if you were to break with me again.
How am i going to react?
Will i call you again to prevent us to break again?
What will i do if that really happen?
Or if you were to break with me,
it will the official and no turning back already?
Is it good that i start thinking so much now?
Or its just a bad feeling for me.

Tell me my dear.
Tell me what should i do.
I don't like to tell you using my mouth.
So i shall just wait for you to read my blog again.