I hate it when you made me chose something .
I hate it when you made me chose you over friends.

I SERIOUSLY HATE IT!

Every time you made me to chose something,
And i have to chose the answer to made you happy.
I have to chose something stupid to make you stop asking me over and over again.
I have it when you do that to me.

I've got no idea what your friends thinks about how you treat me.
You said you care. You said you love me.

You said that you're sorry for making me angry.
You knew it from the start that it will make me angry.
YOU KNEW IT ALL ALONG.

You said you'll STOP smoking on my birthday or before.
Its already September going October.
Around two months left.
I don't believe you'll stop immediately in this two months.
You aren't helping yourself to stop it also.
I'm starting to lost trust in you.

You rather buy a box.
Made me stand there like a idiot just to wait for you.
Yet you told me to go off first.
You know how hurtful i am ?!
Do you know how pist off, angry, sad and miserable?
Can you even think of how i feel before you start acting it out?
I am happy to see you.
But then, after all this..
All the emotion came again?

You said you're sorry.
I wanted to give up so much when i was on my way home?!
Do you know?!
I keep telling myself that i love you.
That's why i'm still holding on...
Sometime i keep thinking,
Is it worth it?
Do you think that is it worth it for me to do this?

We've been together for one month plus.
It seems that i've got more memory of sadness with you then happiness.
But i chose to think about the happiness more,
Even if there isn't much.
I know you care.
You just don't show out to friends around.

Tell me what can i do!
Tell me then!
When you ask if is there anything i want to ask about.
What about you?
Is there anything you want to tell about!?
Or you're just going to hide all along till the news reach my ears?!

You're the most complicated boyfriend i have.
I knew this is going to happen from the start.
But i chose you in the end instead of other guys.
You know why?
Cause i believe you will change better.!
I believe in you so much!
But what did you show me?

I keep holding on to our relationship.
I tried so hard.
So hard that i keep wanting to let go...
I'm tired to keep doing this over and over again you know?

I know you want me to be by your side.
Know more about your friends .
Before you do that,
Do you ever think how we are like?
Most of the time we talk to each other on the phone.,
We hardly go out due to our papers coming.
Due to my friends.
Due to your friends.
I'm trying to understand your feeling.
Are you trying to understand mine?