James is sick. Its been three days. I hope he will be alright.

He really comfort me at times. Was freaking angry with my dad saying bad about maria. I cried. Which i think that he didn't realize that. But its okay. He'll know some day. He was sick and he have to wait for me to sleep. But then, i didn't tell him the stuff that he want to listen like, i love you, i miss you and muacks. Sorry honey. Its just that i don't like to say it out. I do love you, i do miss you. I just don't like to say it out. I'm trying to show you that i do. I just don't want to say it now. Okay, maybe for now. I know you trying to make me have faith in you. I'm trying to have faith in you too. Its just that it will take a longer time. Baby, i hope that you will believe in me too. Its been one year that i did not have a boyfriend. I'm trying not to make mistakes again. I'm trying to stay with you as long as i can, including that i'm not thinking too much.