Alright.. its been a long time i haven't been update my blog. Today was my Chinese Oral. .. Totally flunk it. ARH!!. well, i did my best though. Prelim coming soon. Gonna do my best too. DNT date due this friday. I haven't finish. I'm so dead.

Haven't been going church for a long time. Pastor wee have been asking me why. Swee koon just asked me what am i going to do . I have no idea. I can't just simply to tell him that i want to change church. And if he ask why? And to tell him that cause i don't like the way they say about us? Seriously, i don't know what am i going to do. Some of us plan to change church. We got our own reason. Hais. Seriously, I don't know what i can do now.


I've been running away .. running away from my problem. I don't know how to solve it. My good friends. I really don't know how to deal with it. I don't want to hurt them. Can't you let me have a peacefull life for the last year in school? Just deal for a few months. hais. Phobia of guys? Hais.. Who can tell me what i can do? Its just that, i don't have much TRUE friend. It can't be change, Can it? Guess not right ? Rumors spread, me and gregory. We are just good friends. Seriously... No steady! Why can't people just understand about it? I think my class girls attitude just sucks this few days. Seriously, You can say that i'm jealous whatever shit. Whoever i'm close with, You'll just have to be close to them too is it? What is your goal? Your character just sucks. I don't know how people tolerate your behavior. I want my class back.. I seriously do.