Okay. Vandalism is put up on newspaper. It was some guys that i knew. Disappointed. Oh well, Hope they learn their lesson.

Yesterday was the carnival. Was kinda boring. Walking around with maria aimlessly. Getting angry with her cause of my stupid boyfriend. 'I really sorry.' Its stupid to be angry with him at that time as i was thinking too much. Felt like we can't be a normal couple. Can't really sit and talk together in school. Hiding from everybody else that we're together. I don't really blame him. Maybe i got too much ex boyfriend from the pass that seems to be a normal boyfriend. Oh well. Its been one year long and now i'm having a boyfriend again. yes... after so long. Again.

Was on the phone with him after the carnival. He went home first. Was asking him that will he be sad if i go overseas and study. He didn't really answer my question though. Just treasure everytime that i spend with him will do. I'm trying not to think to much though. I'm really trying. I wanted to believe him. I'm trying to believe also. He smokes. Yes. Trying to make him quit. Hope that i won't ask too much from him also. Sometime i think that i'm not a good girlfriend. I make myself as if i am one good girlfriend that i'm hard to get. I don't know what i can i say much about myself. Just to believe i guess. Guess or hope that things will work out well.