hAix... don't know where to start ... hm... just say the starting of today ba? hm... quite sad la... today he didn't came to school... then recess... walk pass his class... thought i saw him... i think i see wrong ppl ba... sho sad... miss him sho much... die le la.. i now crazy over him le... even dough i don't know him much... i never talk to him before... but i don't know why... i'm crazy over him...yesterday kind of wait for him.. but he didn't appear... then i just go home... then ... haix.. today never come... hope he tml got come to school ba... hehe... hmm... then same old mi... go eat... sms in class... haiz... then CF that time... terence..melvin... jeffery... and jonathan ba... or is eugene? can't remeber... came to moi class... then terence told moi that he know who take my $30.. i was very blur... i huh at them.. then i go out of moi class and talk nicely... then terence tell mi is melvin and jeffery take moi money.... i knew it! it was them... then i was actually forgive him... then suey suey.. ms lim lai liao!... then ms lim scold them ask why they outside two agape classroom... then terence tell ms lim... know liao... then make moi have to write sentance... stupid lor!!! after school.. i go home take jersy then go school again... i go to pastoral care room... melvin and jeffery were outside..(as usual.. got punish..)melvin beg mi to help him... ask mi to suan le... i wan to... but i can't... if i continue treat them nicely... they will take avantage of mi again...i just need to punish him! then sudden chen ning tell mi that later pastor wee will pull mi out for a moment to bible study... i very angr y lor... he wan mi to train propurly... then now pull moi put... how am i going to train nicely... then i go out... melvin and jeffery keep beg moi... i was going to cry le lor... i feel so guilty... they are my juniors...and... this happen to mi and him... i was going to cry le... then teacher came.. and friends came by.... then i was not in a mood to do anything le lor... i feel sho sad!


now i feel so sad... my friend ask mi to offline and relax... i don't know... i just feel like i hate myself... i wan to kill myself... i very tired of all this... cry everyday... not once to be happy all times... ppl insult mi... boss mi around...scold mi... i really can't take it... can some one tell mi wad to do? pls...