wad is going on in my life? i have enough of things happening in school... now my mother?! today the 40th anniveray cancel... then not easy to ask john they all come... then cancel... vincent blame mi for that lor... i keep asking them to come... i have to do lots of things lor... then he blame mi? even if is a joke... is just can't take it lor... i will take everything is true now... no matter wad you say as a joke or wad... i will be crying or angry... i totally change le... then the frist day of this month hp get ocnfiscated... then ask zong yang to leant mi his hp... then now my mum found out le... then scold mi lor... plus hit mi leh! is like... i never tell her coz she will sure scold mi de lor... everytime she scold it will be a hurting word... i just had enough lor... i feel like killing myself... i don't wan to live le... i feel to tired here... maybe i'm giving up on stuff ba... i don't know... i have the feeling of pain again... is diff... this is like... can't stop it... and plus i crying now.. i can't stop myself... i just don't know...