haix.. ok.. i admit.. i did cry for the past few days.. haix.. first thing.. should i quit table tennis or not? haix.. i'm sick of it le.. i don'tknow wad to do.. was is the use of mi going or doing something when mye heart isn't in it? haix.. mr tan was asking mi wad is going on.. mi myself also don't know wad is going on.. haix.. wad i wan also.. i dont' know!! haix.. wad to do now???? arh!!!

i miss him so badly.. i really wan to see him asap.. or our relationship is getting far and far away.. haix.. i really love him lots lor.. he is the guy that will make mi be loved.. he is the guy who let mi love him.. which let him fall in love with him.. i promise him that i won't break with him.. then few month ago.. mi already told calvin and say out that i love luke and i won't ever break with him.. this is promise and i won't break it.. i say it.. i will do it.. no matter how hurt i get from him.. i won't break with him.. coz i just love him lots.. there is no words for mi to say out how much i love him.. haix.. i just really really love him la.. haix..