Haix.. i don't know wad to do now.. i've been crying everyday... coz i'm scared.. sad.. i've made lots of ppl worry bout mi.. they care for mi but i just didn't accpet it.. [sorry guys...] i just don't know wad to do.. i feel like dying... i around and not around will not do any change... i feel useless sometimes.. need ppl to care for mi.. need someone that can love mi but in the end will end ... i don't know wad i wan... i think is happiness.. i can't remember how i was like... cheerful? didn't cry at all... cheer ppl up? but now? sad.. scared.. crying whole day.. angry easily.. wan to kill myself.. turning into bad.. haix.. i don't know wad got into mi.. i think whenever i had a relatioship.. life will change.. change to bad.. i don't know why.. i feels like i can't control it.. i had lots and lots of dream.. that is have a happy life.. lots of friend to care for.. happy family... alot.. but i don't know how.. how can i make my dream come true? when i with my friend.. i will smile.. and laugh.. joke around.. but inside my heart.. i was crying.. can't smile.. haix.. i really don't know wad gone into mi.. i feel total change.. haix.. wad to do...