haix... why am i heart broken everytime when most of my friends start their happi days fast and long... and i'm here... can't find anyone that can last long... maybe is the guy in my heart de ba... been missing him... seen him more and mroe less... last year.. don't wan to see him... sure will see him... this time... wan to see him but can't... haix... i know we will never be together de.. i know that.. i just don't know why i can't give up on him... maybe i know him too long and stay like that? haix.. i don't know.. my head hurts... if you wonder how scary it could be to reject guys at once... even you have no choice... and not telling them who i like... i really wondering how am i like in the past when relationship haven't started... i feel that i'm numb... as in... april bite mi... had a mouth mark on my hand... but i don't feel any pain... the mark was still there till after school... i don't know... i know life will have to go on... but i'm lost again... no in the darkness... i'm still in the light... but i don't know which way i wish i can walk... i need a patner with mi... tell he or her my problems... and he or she can really help mi with it... having headache easily... i can't relay on my friends too much also.. they themselve also have problems... haix.. i don't know wad to do with it...