Its about a week that i didn't update my blog huh? Exam is here. Getting more and more trouble each days. When I'm helpless, all i do is just cry there. Hopeless huh me? Exam is here. Trying to study hard. Now what in my mind is that, Council and job for holiday.

As for council, i just can't think of anything. Just feel like i wasn't in anyhelp but just cheering them up. I know. Leaving them its kinda painfull. When that time terence was saying that Sean want the whole councill to mix. As in no more Consortium, Marketing. but just mix together. My heart was so sad. I just cry there sadly. After all the hard work and now their trying to tear our friendship with some ppl who like to say ppls bad point? What do they know about friendship? Plus, I feel that i can't really cope with my stuff. Quiting stuff one by one.

Even table tennis i'm quiting. I start from there. Meeting new people. Being friends with them. Just this once. Just a blink from your eyes. They're gone. It'll never be the same ever. But without me or not. Looks like it'll make no difference. Since juniors coming up. What's the use already? Might as well quit. Since now one treat me as a friend.

As for holiday work. To speak the truth. My family having some part of money problem. I don't want to keep having money from my parents. I just wan to find a job. That i can earn and take the money as my allowance. So that my parents can have abit extra money by not giving me any money. I feel so helpless. I feel like i'm a burden in the family. Causing trouble everytime. Like i know what will happen if i do this. But i just wan to do it. Just hope that i can find a job fast. =(

Friends around me, I also got nothing much to say. Either some got boyfriend, or they have their own friends. Or exams differents from mine. Study with their own group people. Me? No stead [ which i don't wan to have one either.]. Don't have own friends that will be there for me everytime. What else do i have besides God with me? Or am i just asking too much ? I really don't know. Just feel so damn sad. Every single time i came blog. How many of the post i was happy? guess is less then 20 over 114? How sad i can be? I don't know either. Just hope. things will get over soon.